From Self-Doubt to Self-Trust
I used to be crippled by Self-Doubt. So afraid of what people would think, I didn’t even know who I was because I was trying to be what I thought everyone needed me to be. Paralyzed from forward movement because I criticized myself so much that nothing could get out. I felt trapped and it seemed impossible to get out of my own cage. I remember a time that a friend of my brother’s visited him while I was there and she took one look at me and immediately, almost out of disgust said “What are you afraid of?!” At the time I had no idea that I was afraid of anything. But as I look back now I see the amount of unwinding I’ve had to endure. The deep chains that bound me up. I get emotional even thinking about it, it was awful!!!! From grueling nights and years of different healing modalities, I’ve been able to finally take a deep sigh of relief that there is an end to the entrapment. Hallelujah!!!!! OMG if I can get free anyone can 😭🤩🙌 When people comment that I show up on social media well, I flash back to all that it took me to get here. It was a fight for my life. I’m so grateful to have been unlocked. The beautiful thing is that what we’ve gone through becomes our strength and ability to help others with the same. Now I can clearly see people’s insecurity with showing up. Not only online, but in real life. Always questioning and second guessing. Am I going to look dumb? Was that stupid? When an idea or inspiration comes what immediately follows is self doubt and internal criticism that shuts them down. And then the hurdle of appearing online?! Oh my goodness what a battle! What a feat to overcome!!! What platform do I use? What do I say? How do I edit? Posting, and then immediately feeling cringe. Stuck in limbo and uncertain. I’m here to create a safe space for people to unwind and release their insecurities. To understand and value who they are and what they bring to the world in their own unique way. 🫶✨ It takes a lot of work at times to declutter all of the chaotic negative thought loops and to believe in ourselves. To switch from feeling self conscious to focusing on our purpose.