Hey everyone, After my previous post about my presentation, I realized there was something else I wanted to say. The presentation itself was important, but what I was really trying to explain was something much bigger than those 45 minutes standing in front of a classroom. So this is probably going to be a little bit of heart-to-heart yapping. First of all, thank you. Thank you for allowing me to be part of this community. I'm probably one of the youngest people here, or at least one of the youngest, and yet I've never felt out of place. Honestly, this space feels incredibly comfortable and welcoming to me, almost family-like. I'm genuinely happy to be your maknae, haha. I know that sometimes I can be a little bit crazy, overly emotional, or completely lose my mind over artists, as you have probably already noticed 😅. There are moments when I'm basically the definition of a fangirl who has absolutely no self-control over her emotions, and I apologize if that ever becomes too much. But at the same time, that's just me being passionate about the things and people that bring me joy. The truth is, there is a reason for that. Music, and K-pop in general, helped put me back together when I was falling apart. The groups I love are much more than just artists to me. Their music, stories, messages, and even individual lyrics became something I held onto during some of the most difficult periods of my life. &TEAM taught me that I do not have to be perfect because I never will be. None of us will. What matters is continuing to move forward, even when life gets difficult, even when we fail, and even when we feel lost. They reminded me that growth is not about perfection. It is about refusing to give up, getting back up every time life knocks you down, and continuing to walk forward despite your fears. That is why their message, "We are doing the impossible," means so much to me. Because what seems impossible today can become reality tomorrow if we refuse to stop moving forward. Sometimes the impossible is not winning an award or achieving a dream. Sometimes the impossible is surviving another difficult day. Speaking up despite anxiety. Believing in yourself after years of self-doubt. Or choosing hope when life gives you every reason not to. And somehow, little by little, we keep doing the impossible every day. ENHYPEN taught me to fight for myself and keep chasing my dreams despite the obstacles life throws in my path. Their journey constantly reminds me that fear and uncertainty should never stop us from pursuing what truly matters to us. TXT taught me that growing up does not mean losing yourself. There were times in my life when I felt lost, confused, and unsure of who I was becoming. Their music reminded me that it is okay to be a work in progress. It is okay to not have all the answers. It is okay to be scared of the future while still moving forward. Through their music, I learned that some of the most beautiful things in life happen while we are still figuring ourselves out. They taught me that even during the most confusing chapters of life, there is still hope waiting ahead of us. And maybe that is why their message resonates with me so much. Because sometimes growing up feels terrifying. But TXT reminds me that there is still something beautiful waiting on the other side of that fear. And BTS taught me how to slowly learn to love myself again. One of the quotes that has stayed with me for years comes from RM: "Hear your own voice and Speak Yourself." And another: "If you want to love others, I think you should love yourself first."

Hey everyone, I just wanted to share something because today was a really important day for me. I recently finished out of the biggest and final exam/assigments of my univeristy life. For 45 minutes, I stood in front of everyone presenting my research about Hallyu, HYBE, and the global expansion of Korean popular culture. And honestly? I was terrified. Something many people don't know about me is that I live with PTSD and struggle with anxiety. Most days I manage it well, but public speaking has always been one of my biggest fears. The funny thing about anxiety is that it doesn't care how prepared you are. It still tells you that you're going to mess up. It still convinces you that everyone is judging you. It still makes you overthink every single word even before leaves your mouth. My hands were shaking,. My heart was racing, and the entire time I was fighting not only the pressure of presenting but also my own thoughts. My anxiety was screaming at me that I was going to mess everything up. I hate being the center of attention. Public speaking has always been one of my biggest fears. But despite all of that, I did it. And when it was over, my professor praised my work, told me that my presentation was excellent, and specifically mentioned that I had used very interesting and valuable resources. What my professor saw was a presentation. What he did not see were the sleepless nights, the anxiety, the self doubt, the overthinking, and the countless moments when I convinced myself that I was not good enough. That is why his words meant so much to me. Because behind that presentation were days of hard work, research, passion, fear, and a constant battle with myself. So hearing those words felt like proof that maybe all those years of fighting with myself were not for nothing. Today was not just about surviving a 45 minute presentation. It was about proving to myself that I am stronger than my anxiety. It was about proving that sometimes we are capable of far more than our minds want us to believe. Sometimes the voice in our head tells us that we cannot do something. And then we do it anyway. And that's something worth being proud of💙

I was heartbroken when Gaku didn't make it into &Team, so seeing him dance with Nicholas just makes me so happy! https://www.youtube.com/shorts/PFUSrQRLypw

https://youtu.be/A8KQhwmdZIw?is=QhQ-qr04G1ZweAeQ

We don't have any full-length reactions recorded right now. The one I'd planned for today got blocked. It's in the blocked section of the Classroom, and it's our Top 5 reactions. I'm converting the Top 5s into Shorts so that I can share them on YouTube. I have a list of what the moms will record when we get together next, but I'm curious. What are you hoping we react to next? I'll see if I can get it in our lineup.