@James Wilson thanks for the encouragement James! This writing comes at a time of accountability for me, reflecting on a very long and painful red discovery of myself at age 50 my family and those around me I’ve seen my worst however, my faith is strong, and the hope of the cross is always there. The great Bandini is just referring to be a person that is ultimately full of bullshit lol so don’t set a banquet for me when I do come out the other side a better version of myself if not for only the grace of God..