Okay Mama's this might sound horrible but idk where else to turn or who to go to other than you fabulous mothers.. So my mother and I have not spoken more than a few times and it's always kept short and simple but when I try to just talk to my mom about anything at all she's very short and at times very hateful with me.. a little less than 3 yrs ago I failed a drug test at work and embarrassed her and she had to find out about my addiction in the worst of ways and chose not to help me find a rehabilitation center or even care about speaking to me since that day, I know I broke her heart but that's okay because I didn't do any of it to cause her harm or embarrassment of any kinds on purpose.. However going forward less than a year later my older brother is facing 1st 2nd and 3rd degree residential burglary which meant he could have been doing 12 years in prison however the woman whose home he broke into That sweet woman spoke out on his behalf helping to send him to a rehab if my mother found one and she did but only because I was forced to help her and she for unknown reasons chose to stand behind him throughout the whole process and went as far as ordering books on the drug addiction he (we) had to fight and then some.. she did it for him a second time this past year start to finish and she doesn't treat him like she does me.. the two of them talk daily and if I don't text or call first she doesn't speak to me at all, and on the weekends she and her husband take my 3 oldest it's a very quick exchange so she doesn't have to talk to me or with me no matter what, expect she will always point out how miserable I look but won't talk with me about it just keeps telling me to get medication as I am to depressed for her likes and if I won't she will do it herself on my behalf.. And all I want is for her to talk to me too like she does all my siblings both step and blood siblings and to stop treating me like I am invisible and deaf as well when I am around them all.. I am at a loss honestly and I would love some advice to help manage the situation between my mom and I before I do something I won't be able to reverse this time..