@Lea Kendall Thank you so much Lea, for sharing that with us. Having a hobby as a Mom, to me is one of the most important part of self awareness and identity as we navigate the ever changing winds of Motherhood. I am so happy to hear that you have picked up hobbies for you to relax and take time for yourself. I feel that many of us Moms have a hard time playing with our kids because our nervous system is on Mommy mode. It takes another set of energy consciously to play with our kids and it makes it difficult to connect. Feeling guilty is normal and valid. You can put up a boundary, and welcome guilt and let it pass. I think that as far as changes goes, it's up to you how you see changes fitting your needs for space for connection with yourself and playing with the kids. Personally, I am the same. I grew up not allowed to play as a child, so my younger kids consisted more of domestication as a little girl rather than being a child. It is almost painful for me to play with kids because of that, but I do try when I know I can handle the overstimulation that goes with it. You're doing an amazing job, Mama