Go hit the gym boys. It’s the most basic of recovery … for everything.

1.What part of your life feels heavy right now? Having reached mid life, and struggling to find bliss and fighting sometimes a sadness, I am starting to question choices made earlier in life when I was less knowledgeable, choices that are practically irreversible. 2. Where are you avoiding truth? Many aspects of my life have been grinding down over the last 6-7 years and kind of culminated 2-3 years ago where I fired myself from a job. I have never really fully recovered, also because there are many other unresolved issues, some of which go far back, that need attention. I struggle to compartmentalize it. Truth is I probably need some professional help to get things sorted out. Until now ego and distrust have kept me from seeking help. 3. What would one clear win in the next 90 days look like? Find a psychologist/therapist that I like and who possible can provide me some support.

My family dynamics has often been challenged. I am very different from my wife and we are in turn both very different from our adopted daughter who we adopted 11 years ago. There has throughout been continued tension between us all three and we have always struggled to have a good time together. Being a parent has, egotestically seen, been a rather unsatisfactory endeavour, where I would say "glad to have tried it, wouldnt do it again". It makes me incredibly sad to articulate this but I starting to think to myself that the people closest to me, meaning my wife and daughter, maybe never should ever have been in my life in the first place and I would have been better off alone.