I have a confession to make. Things have changed for me since I competed the 90 day (mmm 18 month 😂) practice , which was toward the end of last year. I wondered how I could share the story with others, and keep working as a Psychologist? I jumped into creating a course and came under the guidance of 'marketers' who told me I was too 'woo'. So I dropped the Eraser teaching from the story... to make myself more 'universally appealing'. However, it never quite happened. There was something in me that really couldn't bring into being. And then this year happened. Trauma came to my door more than once. We started home renovations. Had we had to travel for work for more than a month. And all of this took me away from my own meditation practice. The one I'm trying to convice you - You need to try! 🤦‍♀️ What I was able to do however, was type the journal notes. This was actually a blessing as revisiting the journey, the insights, the experiences, the joy - and the Love, was definately healing. Statements throughout like 'God feels it twice' and 'Higher Love is Soul's Vision' and 'The descent into matter is where all of this gets the opportutnity TO MATTER'... kept coming back, moving through me for a second pass, and bringing the flow of energy with it. I can feel it again now - hence the focus here on journaling the experience. The paired movements. For a while it felt enough. Yesterday, however, I knew it was time to return. And what I realised is the practice had changed the shape of me - energetically. Not that it was all good in there! There was no need for more emotional excavation in the Solar however, just more tending. Less 'what must I clear?' and more 'what is here now, and what wants to be nourished?' When I entered into the Solar centre, it was dim. Previously I had seen myself toiling in a garden under the Light - the Sun (Son) in the sky - clearing bracken and thorns, and planting seeds of forgiveness, compassion, peace, acceptance... forgetting even. Over time the vision and the energy of the centre changed - and the flowers grew.

This morning I did something different. I changed the words of the Prayer to reflect the experience of meditating 'the heart of the ideas or concepts' seeded in the words. What came out of it was Love's Prayer. And it was beautiful. Resonant with the energy of Heaven. Which was adored and loved in return. Then the energy was tenderly carried through the body, so that it could emerge once more at the throat centre, fully realised in flesh. The Prayer was offered to me in my dreams 40 years ago as a path of healing and protection. It's wafted around in my life since that time, however not fully embraced. Not until I undertook this practice at the direction of one of my Guides, which became more understood throughout the journey. More understood and more recognised. Recognition leads to resonance and greater attunement. Resonance and greater attunement leads to more awareness and recognition. The shift in words deepened the recognition and attunement. For months and years I have said the lines and felt deeply into their meaning - in the Chakra centre it opened. I've been calling it the Mystic's Prayer as it is an embodied, imaginal and participatory mystical practice. The word Mystic comes through Greek mystikos, meaning something connected with mysteries or initiation. Its deeper linguistic family carries the sense of entering what is hidden or sacred—not merely acquiring secret information, but being initiated into a reality that has to be encountered. A mystic is a person who seeks—or comes to know—the Divine through direct, inward and transformative encounter, rather than through belief, doctrine or intellectual understanding alone. So this is a mystical experience, particularly when entered, rather than simply recited. And the change in words may help some to enter it more easily. The Lord’s Prayer gives us the words. The Mystic’s Prayer (or path) is how you enter them. Love’s Prayer is what I discovered living inside them. If this is something you would find easier to approach rather than using words that were more relevant 2000 years ago, check into the Classroom from time to time, as I intend to create a version of both as Guided Meditations.

My home 😂 And while the current home renovation will reach a completion. Do we? Or are we continually re-constructing ourselves? (In a good way) Striving to be better, more content, more at peace. To shift it up. To learn & grow, & to try something new? And to accept as we go. To Strive & To Accept 🙏 I’m definitely going through one of those phases atm, & there are times in our life where we feel the push a little more than others. Life often gives us that push (thanks life 🤗😪) For me it’s come from a recent trauma. And while I have recovered (honestly - thanks to this practice ❤️‍🔥🌷🙏) - the shake up persists. Just like in a home renovation, I feel stripped back. Again. In a good way. In a way that’s allowed me to truly reconnect with what is most important - to me. And to lose interest in everything else. And you can see that reflected in this site at the moment. I’m repurposing where appropriate, trying on new colours, & slowly getting closer to being able to offer what I’m here to offer. On this planet to offer. To the planet itself 🌎 To others 💕 To myself 🙇‍♀️ So tell me - are you going through a period of more intense reconstruction right now? Or are you wanting to?? And if the answer is Yes - tell me where! 💃 👏 Meanwhile, time to get back to the painting! 🌈 🙏🌎 J xx

I was reading something this morning that stated quite confidently that 'nobody enters the world with anxieties'. What are your thoughts on this? For me, I can say that... I did. I came in with my anxiety. All of the things mentioned here can be taught, or can be a part of our individual differences. They can also be a 'personality residue' from a previous life experience. If we 'died' with these feelings still within our hearts and minds, then they manifest in the next body (or, when our soul feels the opportunity is right), so that we can continue the healing. This is very prominant in Edgar Cayce's readings as well. As a psychologist I am certainly aware of toxic or unhealthy/unhelpful mindsets being impressed upon us when we are young. At home, at school, at Uni, in our relationships etc etc. I have also read about Ancenstral Trauma. And from a neuroscience perspective, it could be genes or beliefs. It could be any or all of it, however our Soul histories should not be discounted. So how do you know?? And... is it important to know? And, is 'important' as important as helpful?? 🤭 From a psychological perspective it CAN BE useful, however it's more important to look at 'NOW'. Where are you now? How do think now? How do you feel now? What do you believe... NOW. And is it helping you live a full and happy life, whatever your circumstances. Then we vision. If not this, then what? What inspires me? What lights me up inside? There is so much offered (or pushed) toward us in regard to manifesting at this time. Nothing wrong with it. Manifesting is real, we do it every day, we always have. What they offer now is how to do it with intention, amplify with attention (especially quiet attention), and live as if it is real in your life. From a Soul perspective though, I suggest that it is better to do it from a place of intrinsic motivation, rather than extrinsic. Intrinsic = Growth (Personal + Soul via Love and Joy) Extrinsic = Ego They can be combined, however even psychological research shows that those who persue extrinsically motivated goals (only), will be the ones to experience anxiety, depression and feelings of unfulfillment when they are in their late 40's - 60's (I'll check those ages - it's been a minute!) 😅

I am thankful to God for you and God has chosen us for the world in which billions of people live so that we can serve Him and achieve salvation and everlasting life. The Lord says that you are not but I have chosen you from this world God has the purpose in everything and everything. No work or thing happens without God's will I believe that God has mixed us out of this great world. There is definitely a purpose in God