I can never lock in with school
hey guys! just wanted to share a little bit about myself in this community! this post mainly has to do with my relationship with school as a practicing creative :) i’ve been making digital music since middle school. when i started, i was just making short, cheap sounding songs on my 6th gen i pod touch. at the time i was really into bedroom pop, and had just seen steve lacy’s ted talk on making music from his iphone. anyway, time passes, my equipment upgrades, and now i’m in high school. everytime i got home from school, id immediately head to the daw. the idea of creating endless songs felt so joyous, and i didn’t care that it was at the expense of my studies (i justified it by barely passing) then covid hit. the lock down was disastrous for everything but my music; it gave me the opportunity to finally lock in all the way. i connected myself with people my age (which was a hugeeee plus at the time), and put myself in a scene where i felt i was on the right track, surrounded with the right crowd; fans and followers were reposting my songs, countless musicians were asking for features. then covid ended. somehow, all of that dissipated in front of me when life slowly went back to normal. yes i got to finally see my school friends, and be around them,.. but my time during covid felt like a whole other life. unfortunately, school, and music have never been the same since then. im 22 now, trying to see how everything makes sense together (because all my friends r starting to graduate 💔💔💔) but all the courses i take feel bland and uninspired. i’m lowkey burning money, to satisfy those that want me in school. because (probably until now, here) i haven’t found a study that pulls me in and makes me curious. i want to be as inspired as i was in high school, barely passing just to have time for music. anyway. thanks for reading :) h.a.