I find the areas where the two are mistaken come up more in my personal life than at work. I'm often left wobdering, “Am I leaving this alone because I genuinely accept it, or because engaging with it would force me to feel or decide something uncomfortable?”. At least with work the uncomfortable choice yields tangible results like experience, a certification, something under my belt. At home it sometimes means having to yield into a calm surrender and that scares me.

Being securely chosen without having to constantly earn it.

This is so beautifully written. The visceral reactions our bodies have before our minds can catch up are a powerful form of intuition. Something that society conditioned us to ignore to conform to what is considered “normal.” When I feel nausea, begin to tremble, or experience that immediate sensation deep in the pit of my stomach, some part of me already knows that something deeper is happening beyond societal expectations. There are vibrations in this universe that cannot always be studied in a textbook or explained by a code of conduct. I aim to listen more closely to these gut reactions and trust what my body is trying to tell me, particularly as I wrestle with environments and expectations I feel pressured to adhere to. Conformity does not always equal alignment.

I am comfortable with anger and affection but totally avoid grief. I default to doing something with the emotion vs letting the emotion exist and giving me time with it.

During the weekend: A quiet morning drive. Coffee in hand. Sitting by a body of water with no agenda. A bookstore or museum for an hour. Lunch somewhere peaceful. Maybe a walk. Home before dinner.