I was listening to a testimony this morning of a woman who went throughout her life, starting at the age of 11 doing drugs. She said that her mother left her family and abandoned her and her little sister leaving her dad to take car of them. Soon after she started to run away from home. She was so angry and dissapointed and took her mother leaving the family personally. When she was 13-14 she had her first trip to juvenile detention. She started to get involved in larger and larger crimes. By the time she was 16 she was put in jail for two years with authorities thinking if they could keep her behind bars until she was 18 she might have a chance. The story ends with her flying to LA and being so addicted to drugs that she was introduced to a mafia boss. She was buying so much and so often that when she would go to the dealers on the street they would not have enough product on them and so they sent her to the supplier. After some time he offers her a job transporting illegal immigrants over the border and after about a year, she's caught and put in jail for 10 years. Now at the age of 40 she's sitting and telling her story. As i listened to the story I was listening to hear if she would tie back all of these actions to the source... and she did. She admitted that all of her crimes were rooted in her drug addiction. And her addiction was to numb the pain of her mother leaving and her feeling abandoned and unloved. I share this story because, if we were honest, many of us have behaviors that we want to change, but just like this lady that tried numerous times to get off of drugs, she was trying to fix actions but never looking at the reason she was acting out. She even said, "I was doing all this for attention" but what's sad is, Yes, she was getting attention from men, from the police and attention from her family, but non of it was positive. She may not have realized she was screaming for attention, you may not realize why you're acting out, hurting those around you. Why certain things trigger you... but many times its the small child on the inside still crying out.