Hello, I am Erik. I am addicted to pornography and masturbation, and it has already ruined my life. I can’t interact with the women I like, I hate myself, I am emotionally numb, I feel like my inner dialogue and inner world is suppressed. I am honestly at the point where I want to kill myself. I don’t see any hope for me. I have tried over a thousand times to stop masturbating. If I could “get sober” from this addiction, I would be a new person and I feel like I would help many others. I feel like this struggle or addiction or perversion or whatever it could be called, is keeping me from achieving my dreams and the life I want. That is all. Thanks for reading. I hope what I write applies in this group.