{Breaking character} Haiku Thought I knew myself. Hurt folks will hurt folks when pushed. Breaking character.

I was awake at this time and didn’t think you were, but I guess I should know better☺️.

{Mother’s deserve more than survival} They deserve to be appreciated not just on today, but with every breath that you breathe. The fact that it may have very well been their prayers that are responsible for your existence. Because they interceded on your behalf on a regular. Because they chose to have you and Care for you. Because they sheltered you from their struggles. Because they tried to protect you from making the same mistakes they made. Yet often times you thought you knew better than they. Because they had to sit back and allow you to learn a lesson since you would not heed their advice. Because even though you’re hardhead made for a soft behind, they loved you unconditionally. Because even though you chose to distant yourself from them in challenging times, they always had a home for you in times of trouble. Because when you have a loving mother, it’s a gift from God that will only be present with you for a time So in saying that, don’t take it for granted, if your mother is still here. Because they’ll be a time where you will treasure every picture, every recipe that’s been passed down— every memory of conversation, every Voicemail that they’ve ever left in your phone. Because that’s all you have once they’re gone.

There are times when you just get sick and tired. This week was what it took- In order to make a change. A drastic change in order to stop procrastinating— To work on improving the quality of my life. On Tuesday, I literally experienced being sick and tired to the point I thought I was having the beginnings of a heart attack. Drove myself to the ER, with the expectancy of being admitted. My thought process was accurate. Because after doing blood work and bp checks there was cause for alarm. So at about 6am, after being there since 10:25pm the night before, they admitted me. After a nuclear test, echocardiogram and stress test, they concluded that I may have sleep apnea as well as hypertension and high cholesterol. Thank God a heart cath wasn’t necessary. But now, not only will I be reading labels of all food purchases in regard to sodium— I will have to take meds when I abhor prescription drugs— Knowing they come with side effects that dictate more meds and so forth. The discipline it will take, but I’ve done it before. Prescription drugs is definitely a motivator to get with the program. I’m not about that life of being on those pills indefinitely. I will be looking into alternative supplements. But grateful there’s a solution for my healing.

@Naomie Thomas thank you

@Michelle Cox thanks ☺️

@Naomie Thomas