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@Sam Kendall @Sarah Jones

Everybody, let’s talk about it Posting anonymously because this is complicated and I’m not ready for it to be attached to my name. I’m a white woman. Let’s just get that detail out of the way. I have four children, ages 7, 10, 13, and 16 from my previous marriage to a Black man. We divorced in 2023. The circumstances were ugly and the fault was mine. I’m not here to relitigate that. After my divorce we had nowhere to go. I packed up my kids and moved into my mother’s house, a few hours from the city we lived in. That was two years ago. My kids are still grieving that move on top of everything else the divorce cost them. They are good kids. They deserved none of this. My mother has stage four breast cancer and she is dying. I am her only child, so everything she has is coming to me when she passes- my childhood home, money, and other things she’s built up over her life. I moved in to take care of her because there was no one else to do it, but also because it just makes sense. At the end of the day, she is still my mother, even if we were estranged for years before this. And if I’m being honest, I’d be stupid to not be here making sure everything is handled properly. My mother is racist. She always has been. She makes comments about my children. She has said things directly to them that no child should ever have to hear, let alone from their grandmother. My father was the same way. He is gone now, but he never hid how he felt about my ex-husband or about my children existing the way they do. If I’m being as raw as this space asks us to be, my marriage was really my ultimate act of revenge and independence. I knew exactly how much bringing a Black man home would shock and humiliate her. I convinced myself it was this great, sweeping romance, and maybe it was at the time. But honestly, I would never be with a Black man again. I feel like I’ve outgrown that kind of chaotic energy, and I’m just drawn to things that are more comfortable and familiar to me now. My children are here because I was young and wanted to make a statement, and I have to carry the burden of knowing they deserved a better foundation than my youthful rebellion.

Today is our first Sunday session within a new space and with some new faces. As white folks committed to deconstructing white supremacy, we’ll begin by grounding in our purpose and guidelines. We’ll introduce ourselves, clarify how we hold these spaces, and open the floor for feedback on topics folks want to explore. For those of us who benefit from having some processing time when it comes to questions/topics that will be discussed, our share question for tomorrow will be: What does deconstruction mean to me?

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