Have you ever felt like a lone wolf? When I went through my awakening in 2012 I was so excited to share all the things I was learning I went from drinking, smoking and feeling stuck reacting to life To feeling expansive, connected to my spiritual self, seeing the connections between my beliefs, thoughts and outer reality All from meditating for 10 mins a day and observing my thoughts rather than trying to control them I felt connected to my soul for the first time in my life And it was liberating! My whole energy shifted I started to eat differently, I was more present, and I now liked to “ground myself in grass” on my lunch breaks working at Nordstrom in women shoes I stopped drinking, smoking and having bad habits And as a result… People thought something was wrong with me Some of my family thought I went nuts, friends at work didn’t know what to think and close friends no longer had a drinking buddy who could resonate in the same way I thought maybe if I shared all this with them… they would understand and then learn about it and want to come WITH me on this spiritual path I was surprised to find out that they did NOT share my same passion In fact it was met with resistance and the more I tried to get them on board, the more they resisted From this experience I started to develop a belief… Maybe there aren’t people out there like me? Maybe I am all alone on this journey? Do I really need anyone else? And because people didn’t understand me, I concluded that they were “low vibe” and “asleep” in the matrix This created a block from me connecting with anyone And for years I felt alone, confused and judged by others Then in 2017 I started to make daily videos on youtube I committed to my passion and within 6 months I quit my 9-5 job and went full time At that point I started to reach out to other people in my niche because I wanted to connect I had to be vulnerable and put myself out there And as a result I met my best friend Victor! We’ve been best friends for almost 10 years now!

Today is saw the truth finally, there was always this unexplainable gap between me and someone close since childhood. I could only see their good soul behind every action that hurts me and saying he didn’t mean it I’m just being too much sensitive and with time the gap was growing deeper till it reached to a point where I need to admit that I hate that person even though I felt guilty for hating that person and feeling bothered from this energy until I decided to accept the hatred feelings and I saw it crystal clear.. The Truth.. This person is not seeing, hearing and feeling my inner child which is all what the inner child needs. Hence This person is not good for my inner child.. So before you commit with a partner in romance or work or creative or art with or anything Make sure they are good for your inner child

In 2012 I went through my FIRST awakening… And about 2 years ago I went through my SECOND awakening I had no idea there was another layer and it went so much deeper The first awakening is all about becoming aware that there is a correlation between your thoughts and your reality Manifesting your reality, watching the movie “the Secret” thinking better thoughts, etc The outer and inner are connected There is usually a connection to the spiritual side as well and a feeling that there is more than just the material Usually there is a reframing of the past as well that frees the person from the burden of it This can send someone onto a path of self development, creating their own reality Watching videos and reading books to become more aligned and connected For me there was also an “ungrounding phase” of awakening as well lol I loved crystals, super esoteric ideas that took me out of being here now, and also rebelled and resented all those people in the world who were “asleep” and didn’t understand me Learning about government secrets, aliens and other hidden information also became a focus For me there was a layer of spiritual grandiosity that was created that justified how alone I felt because people didn’t understand me and friend didn’t relate to me in the same way About 2 years ago I began what I call “the second awakening” There are 3 powerful things that happened… The first was a waking up OUT of my core patterns People pleasing and hyper independence where patterns adopted in childhood that kept me trying to “heal more” I found that even though I intellectually KNEW about my patterns… I would always fall back And that would leave me frustrated! It was a whole new world when I woke up out of my pattern I had to accept those patterns and heal the inner child part of me to embrace a new version of me The second was that I had to embrace my DARK “BAD” side So much of the first phase of awakening is to think GOOD thoughts, don’t think or feel negative emotions or you’ll attract something BAD!

As you Heard, You are NOT feeling Guilty or Ashamed! You Are Scared of Rejection and that blow my mind 🤯 Because all that time I was saying I accept the part of me that feels guilty or ashamed and it didn’t feel much but when I said to the shame : I accept the part of me that feels scared of rejection my throat open up and I found my self breathing deeply. So there is no feeling that is called guilt or shame that’s the matrix program. The lowest emotion is the Fear of rejection and no such thing as shame or guilt. Congratulations, now you can deep breathe and not let controllers/ narcissists manipulate you

This message is for those who are in the kundalini awakening rounds that has been going on in cycle and was very tense the last weeks. Anyone felt the shift in the energy today? What you are feeling now is not an imagination. Your authentic self is here.. and you might be hearing your fears in the background but their voice is lower than your inner voice .. Your surroundings might look the same but you are not the same.. You might find yourself taking an automatic deep breath 1 or 2…