I am here sitting in the parking lot waiting for the flight to get in with my partner. It is now 2:16 AM. I woke up after a short sleeve of two hours to come pick my partner up. My belly felt really upset and nauseous so feeling a little unsettled right now after letting go of some noise left over from anxiety that was mirrored to me by this group and from the dreams that I woke from about an hour ago. And n this release my belly is feeling better. In this activation, I always feel deeply and a physiological response in my body from head to toe. I feel calm. I feel like I have some clarity after asking the question what I need right now is breath and feeling peace grounded.

Oh yes i looked to family members for what I needed emotionally, until I realized that I was the only one able to give my inner child the attention and love she needed. I became more of who I was in Body Mind and Sole. I am still becoming am that means I am growing towards truth 💚

@Angela Sellars I had a miracle sleep. I had a peaceful and restful sleep all night long. I woke up with energy and ready to expect more miracles as the day is meeting me. I called in Divine Love to take over and guide me to the truth which is love . I’ve had a lot of miracles happen today.

@Wilma Mahoney oh my gosh Wilma that is one of the most beautiful things someone has told me about how my paintings made them feel. Thank you so much. I went out in the back yard with both of them. As I was journaling in script formate with Divine Love about the painting of peonies , it literally got blown off the wood horse and fell onto the ground into all the dead maple leaves from the autumn past . I asked Dvine Love she I pick it up or leave it there. The Divine told me to leave it there and to do an alchemy process to it to cleanse it is to cleanse my old wounds . So , I said yes and covered the painting up with the dead leaves and twigs and sat down again with my journal and started writing again in script format with divine love. I asked divine love how do I know that it is divine love, writing the words as answers in my journal or is it me divine love answered me back saying “you are me and I am you”. It was explained to me that form will always change, but you are divine love, and I am divine love with all of us as one this truth will forever and always be. I wrote lots more, but this is the gist of my conversation.. I’m now ready to paint it for me as the truth, that is the healing the miracle. Knowing Love.

Oh yes , I just love the opportunities that change my perspective. I love Haveing those moments with people that give me I call my “light bulb “ moments. It could even be something I have heard about before and logically i know about but so little sentence can have a monumental impact on my frame of reference. Sometimes something is said to you and years later you go wide eyed one day when you think about it again and it becomes clearer then you thought possible. ❤️

The thought that do to brain injury I cant write a formal application to NL tenancy act board in response to a tenant claiming untruths. In fact they only gave me 3 days notice of moving out and so I am out a months notice. The course of miracles would say that this is a script i created and i am only reviewing for which has already happened and that my only function as a student of course in miracles is to observe and forgiveness. And so today I am asking Holy Spirt to come guide me and so I let go of this holy spirt as you know what to do with this. To guide me in loving mind /in right mind knowing I have split mind . I trust you holy spirt to guide my actions today. I walk through this part of the script knowing i have trust that holy spirt Divine love knows. I am asking myself how is this person who is my mirror of something in me I need to let go of to be in loving mind ? I have no control in ego mind, I asking holy spirt to take this and guide me back to god mind Divine Love. 🙏

My update. I pulled out my laptop and started going through documents where I knew I had to go through a legal process because a rental agreement was broken. I was starting to feel my body having Trama responses. I then asked Divine Love to come and take over the weight of all this and help guide me to divine love instead of feeling these negative feelings. I asked what to do? I heard Deanne gather all the documents together and just made the decision to not torment the self all afternoon trying to do a digital file of everything and try to write a formal letter ect …. Instead go as for help. I never had my sister or partner around to help me. I kept reminding myself that this what was happening is the dream and I am the dreamer of the dream. I repeatedly called on divine love holy spirt angels as sending masters to come snd asked them to remind me of solit mind and help me be in god mind divine love mind. I kept repeating it and repeating Thankyou. You can not be in ego mind of separation if you are thankful. I went to a government building involving the Residential Tendency Act Office, and I made a counter application of rent money that was owed to me. Why am I telling you all this? Well because this was huge for me as first I have concussion and some things are extremely difficult for me. Hence why I am medically unable to work because of the concussion. The story I have told myself for years and i been evolving and changing. I made decision to not struggle and instead let myself be seen and asked for help at the government building. The Inner work i done in this membership including Journaling and Painting to receive healing of body mind and spirit has indeed helped me transform other areas of my life. The more the canvas shows me the more I am transforming. I asked Divine Love to take over today like I ask when I paint and I had to trust and have faith. As I take action based on my own independent decisions and I have the conversation with Divine Love causes me to grow my confidence!!!!