Hello people😁👋🏽 im new to this app and am not 100% sure what it holds so im just exploring right now but heres a little bit about my journey with christ… I have been off and on with it for years because every time i feel back in to lust or every time i sinned in general i would feel as if i couldnt turn back to god because of shame and i would run from it but for some reason i could never really shake the feeling of this is where i am supposed to be and i would think about god constantly and every time I did something wrong i would try to apologize to god but i never truly repented and the first time i did i had doubts that it was genuine so i turned away again but like i said still couldnt shake the feeling of feeling like god was where i was supposed to be and i was in this relationship for a year and started noticing that it was very lustful and i didnt think that was genuine either i guess i just liked the feeling of having somebody but i started thinking about god constantly and i started reading more and realized that that was the biggest thing holding me back and i was just scared of letting go of the things of the world and scared of being judged rather than seeking the fulfillment of god so one night like a week and a half ago i had this moment of conviction and it was so strong and i realized what i was actually doing so i just got on the floor and started praying and truly repented and before this i had been smoking and drinking mind you im only 17😅🙌🏽 but i threw away my “stash” and stopped everything and gave myself to the lord and started getting more into his word and praying more and ive had so many dreams and signs that im on the right path in that short amount if time and it has really opened my eyes to seeing that god is the only thing you really need in life and he is amazing and his work is amazing and this whole time has been so peaceful and its made me genuinely happy and i still get tempted some times but i had to cut everything that was tempting me off and run from it and that is really helping that and praying about my temptations but that is some of my story lol i hope it made sense once i start typing i kinda get out if control and tend to move all over the place.😂