9 day challenge brought me here along with the push from the universe. Im not 100% sure on the how what when why, lol, but I am 100% sure i was guided here! Many confirmations reflected to me in my reality and so im here to play the game of trust and see where it leads me. No more standing on the shore but im here to jump into the river and let it carry me with the guidance from NEU. I am excited to see what happens, thank you for having me!!!! Instagram @kwatneyy My breakthrough story 🥺 Wow. I havent looked this far back in some time. Grateful to acknowledge the girl who got me where I am today! Thank you for reminding me of where I have come for :) Step One – Before I was born beneath the southern skies of Johannesburg, South Africa, a child of fractured homes, tangled stories, and countless “in-betweens.” My childhood was marked by confusion. There were multiple divorces, step-parents, and new siblings from both sides. My parents built new families, and somehow, I no longer fit anywhere. On the outside, I seemed like a sweet, kind, and beautiful little girl. But inside, I was lost , frightened, unseen, and alone. I grew up believing that life was something that simply happened to you. My habits reflected my pain: endless hours online or watching television, trying to escape the noise inside my mind. I had never learned how to feel. My father, though present, never expressed sadness, only anger, often shown through violence. And so, I too became angry, confused, and emotionally stunted. I was raised to believe that vulnerability was weakness and that love had to be earned through performance and perfection. Over time, this created a deep wound within me, a wound of unworthiness. I became insecure and hungry for approval, constantly trying to fill an invisible void. Step Two – The Shatter High school became a stage, and I played my role perfectly. I wore the mask of the confident, popular girl - “Courtney Bence,” the funny, beautiful, social butterfly. Everyone loved her, but no one knew me.