I do not want to do this anymore Always feeling so very alone I feel broken and empty down to my core My heart feels like stone

I’ve never really been OK. My heart hurts. I try to pretend that my feelings aren’t real, but I’m just dying inside. I feel so empty and so cold more alone than I’ve ever been. This is exactly what happens when I open my heart. This is what happens when I put my faith or trust into other people. I knew this would happen, it always ends this way.

If you only knew how heavy everything felt on me how hard it was to carry all of this pain by myself I’ve tried so many times to stay strong and hoped that the pain would go away one day, but it didn’t. I kept it all inside, not wanting to bother or burden anyone. I thought that if I waited a little bit longer, things would get better but they didn’t. The weight discontinues grow growing heavier. The silences got so much louder, and I felt even more alone. I just needed someone who could see my pain without the long words who reminded me I didn’t have to be strong.

One of the most lonely moments in someone’s life is when they are watching the entire world fall apart, and the only thing they can do is sit back and blankly stare..

I was the very first mugshot of the year Around my whole area, and I didn’t shed a tear It was crazy, very fucking crazy I was literally just trying to be lazy Arrested for a warrant I didn’t know I had And it wasn’t me who did it, conspiracy, how sad I never imagined I’d be an inmate and I’ve been there quite a few times I hope I never go back, I hope my life gets on track, and I keep making rhymes Love, self love, that’s really what I lack But I promise, this year, I’m taking myself back