Random reflections on my mindfulness and lack thereof
All week, I was mindfully and diligently working on a couple of projects that had a deadline. Everything during that time was about getting the work done. The work got done and it was great. I wasn't mindful about anything else. I wasn't' mindful about eating at all; it honestly didn't occur to me much. The few times it did, my conversation was that I did not have time to go through all of THAT to eat, I had stuff to do Follow up thought 'that's why you're so fat". I will do better. On the other hand, walking my two little doggies was completely mindful, totally forced by them. We walk, we stop and sniff EVERYTHING, getting in ALL the smells! I love watching them taking in everything so intently and I happily indulge every little stop, sniff and pee break. Rushing is not allowed. Generally, I'm in a good space Then....I go to work in a dysfunctional organization and have to watch and listen to the things that go with that. I'm annoyed, I'm. judging.... Then I get pissed at myself for being angry and not using the tools I have to be another way....geesh. It was a rough night. I beat myself up pretty badly.