Stop questioning yourself...
I do... Everyday. I wonder if I am good enough to own this Community. I wonder if those around me are judging the decisions I have made recently. I wonder if my dreams will ever come true because I just don't have anything others will find valuable. I started thinking about why I feel this way this week, because that doubt is a defense mechanism. I have learned a lot from a few people in this world. I would call them mentors, but if you met them, you would likely not see them that way. There were a few people who took me under their wings at certain points in my life and taught me lessons I had not learned previously. How to take care of myself, financially and emotionally. How to manage the feelings of jealousy, of envy, of doubt. How to move through this world knowing that you aren't more important than others, but that you have something to offer anyone. One guy taught me how to climb the corporate ladder while battling through his own challenges and eventually getting fired. He warned me that doing so may ask of me more than I wanted to give. He was right...in hindsight, I traded 10 years of my life chasing money, and not happiness. I hold in high regard every single one of those humans who faced their own challenges but took the time to sit with me and help me through some of my biggest decisions, leading by example and teaching me what they knew I needed to know. I hope every one of you has had similar experiences, because everyone changed me. So yes, I still doubt myself; that is normal. But when times get hard, I draw on what those others taught me, whether they realized it or not, and it gets me through, it pushes me to move forward, even for one step.