What is one way you've felt EMPOWERED lately?🤩😍🥳

I do this with my daughter every night. I ask her, what was your favorite part of today? So I'm going to do that for us, too. It helps our brain "record" a positive moment and it is telling our mind we want more of that. Starting with yesterday, my favorite part of the day was exploring a park! I honestly had no expectations but was just grateful to get a chance to be outside in beautiful weather! It turns out it is a beautiful park! So grateful!!!

I just finished my zoom! I am SO PROUD of myself and grateful because Journaling has felt SO scary in the past. But today I took a big step!! I started filling out a guided journal! I realized some of the blocks.. for example, the last time I journaled, my life was literally in danger. So my system had associated "Journaling" with danger. Not only that, but being a single mom, I need to be intentional about privacy (and I deserve to). So to write it in a random notebook felt too scary and yet more stress on my brain etc. Another block was the thought "ahhhh this is too complicated! Therefore I shouldn't start" etc I said, hey, just open it up during your Zoom. Work on it during that time frame. Then close it for now 🥰 So all that to say, this morning I conquered (at least starting) to journal!! 🥳🥳🥳 Love you guys!! Hope this helps!!

How is everyone today? I am gaining more and more awareness! I am SO grateful for that! What is something you are grateful for and/or proud of? 🥰

Watching Cesar again... that show is helping me so much! But my point is, I got triggered during it (not because of aggression but because people were letting the dog get away with it etc), and I let myself release! I'm realizing WHY my system is SO ANGRY at people who abused me. It makes perfect sense. My dad "got away with it" my ex husband "got away with it". My brother "got away with it". Other people PROTECTED them, not me. Not ok. So that being said, I did my best to let myself release, and then I felt MY energy coming back to me! It is absolutely incredible when you're able to shed the shit🤣 I have been a cycle breaker since the beginning with my daughter. But as Cesar says, all pack leaders have to be on the same page to be most effective. Well my reality is the other "pack leader" (her dad) does nothing but undermine me manipulate her etc.. So THAT being said, part of MY healing is realizing I can only do so much. It is ACCEPTING that she has free will to ultimately choose the type of person she wants to be. Just like when I lived in California, and I had to potty train her every week because he couldn't be bothered to maintain it on weekends so therefore she'd come back in diapers.. not ok. So anyway, ultimately this is all good. This is me realizing that I can only do so much. I'm doing an EXCELLENT job. And still, I can only do so much. So to stop expecting myself to "make up" for what her dad refuses to do. Otherwise, I will end up being controlled by him forever, and I will be miserable at best. EVERY good deed I do will be tarnished by him etc. I will still be in a mental and emotional prison. It is an energetic boundary that I need to create and defend. I'm responsible for what *I* do. This will take time and repetition because this isn't a normal way of living. But it is the truth. Anyway, I hope this helps on some level. These are always HARD-fought realizations. But ultimately I'm grateful. Because I see how others' energy affects me. So I need to and want to protect my energy.