I have a confession to make. Things have changed for me since I competed the 90 day (mmm 18 month 😂) practice , which was toward the end of last year. I wondered how I could share the story with others, and keep working as a Psychologist? I jumped into creating a course and came under the guidance of 'marketers' who told me I was too 'woo'. So I dropped the Eraser teaching from the story... to make myself more 'universally appealing'. However, it never quite happened. There was something in me that really couldn't bring into being. And then this year happened. Trauma came to my door more than once. We started home renovations. Had we had to travel for work for more than a month. And all of this took me away from my own meditation practice. The one I'm trying to convice you - You need to try! 🤦♀️ What I was able to do however, was type the journal notes. This was actually a blessing as revisiting the journey, the insights, the experiences, the joy - and the Love, was definately healing. Statements throughout like 'God feels it twice' and 'Higher Love is Soul's Vision' and 'The descent into matter is where all of this gets the opportutnity TO MATTER'... kept coming back, moving through me for a second pass, and bringing the flow of energy with it. I can feel it again now - hence the focus here on journaling the experience. The paired movements. For a while it felt enough. Yesterday, however, I knew it was time to return. And what I realised is the practice had changed the shape of me - energetically. Not that it was all good in there! There was no need for more emotional excavation in the Solar however, just more tending. Less 'what must I clear?' and more 'what is here now, and what wants to be nourished?' When I entered into the Solar centre, it was dim. Previously I had seen myself toiling in a garden under the Light - the Sun (Son) in the sky - clearing bracken and thorns, and planting seeds of forgiveness, compassion, peace, acceptance... forgetting even. Over time the vision and the energy of the centre changed - and the flowers grew.