My fear of failure is bad, epecially financially. I don't want to be the reason my family struggles. This is why it's so hard for me to change careers/jobs. Lower pay, starting over a deductible, getting in a similar/worse situation that what I'm currently in, etc. are the sabotaging thoughts I have and makes me "stuck" 😞.

Morning routine for the next week: Lotus Wei mists, read my book, and have coffee at home. I hate waking up early, but I envy people who can get up and read the paper while drinking their coffee. I don't get "me time" at all, so this would help create a time for that since my daughter is normally sleeping.

I realized I'm not living my authentic self at work. I'm tiptoeing around day after day when I'm not doing anything wrong. When I'm living my core values at work and getting shamed for doing it, that's not okay. I'm kind of thinking this is what is holding back my manifestation because of the stress I'm under. I started looking for new jobs tonight 😊

I feel like I am heavy on masculinity. Sometimes I think I I need to do everything instead of a just couple things and it can also come off as controlling/forceful. It creates unnecessary stress and sometimes I just need to trust the process/go with the flow.

I have high anxiety when it comes to driving on the highway when it's snowing. I can't remember the last time I drove on the highway in snow. Last night I had to go to my grandma's house and I had two options; take the highway that is plowed / well traveled on or take the back roads that are winding and not plowed. It was later at night and a new traffic would be low, so I decided to take the highway. I had to talk myself beforehand and during stating that I could do it and what to do in the event that someone slams on their brakes, I go into the ditch, etc. I also told myself if I didn't like the highway going there, I could take the back roads back home. Lo and behold, I took the highway there and back and felt like I climbed Mount Everest 💪🏻 so freaking proud of myself!