Thinking? I Wish I Could Right Now... But
I keep going back over the journey that brought me here into this place - this community. I keep wondering over the 'timing' and 'presence' of it all. And on most days I am grateful; on others - I am confused; still, on others, I am amazed at the worlds being discovered right in front of my face. But, every now and again, the question always comes up, "Why?" What thee phuck are you doing and why? And I never had the answer. Don't get me wrong. I had all the 'slogans'. Legacy. Business Acumen. Debt Free. Sovereignty. However, I just could never stop asking 'why?' Today, as I study, I am asking of myself, Why?. Annnnnnnnnnnnd. I still don't have the answer that gives you that, "Yeah. That's it right there." That immaculate timing. That incredible sense of just knowing. That place where you're not even thinking about how? why? when? You're just in that shit - Free. Er'thang is popping. Er'thang is flowing. It's just er'thang. You feel me? So, since I don't have that 'thought' locked down just yet. Let me share how I'm feeling. And I'll use another's words: Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds and shall find me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul. (Invictus: Ernest Henley) Have a great day family. And whatever your 'why?', I pray you safe passage and blessings beyond measure - for you and all that you love