Reflection: The Wisdom of Holding Paradoxes
I once heard it said that wisdom isn't found in resolving the tension between two true things — it's found in being able to hold both, without flinching, without picking a side. Scripture doesn't shy away from this. Solomon warns against being too righteous in your own eyes and too wicked in your indulgence — both extremes miss the point (Ecclesiastes 7:16-18). Paul goes further: he boasts in his weaknesses, because it's there, not in his strength, that Mashiach's [Messiah's] power shows up clearest (2 Corinthians 12:10). The tension isn't a problem to solve. It's the place where God meets us. - To be deeply disturbed by the state of the world, and still genuinely grateful for the gift of life. - To grieve what you've lost, and still be thankful for what remains. - To release what you cannot control, and still take action toward what you can change. - To be powerful, and still deeply tender. To hold firm boundaries, and still carry a giving heart. The immature mind needs certainty — one thing has to be right so the other can be wrong. But real chokmah [wisdom] lives in the paradox. The moment you can hold it without flinching, you have access to something most men spend their whole lives arguing their way around. Here's the harder truth underneath all of it: - Just because God (YHWH [Hashem]) uses me does not mean He's pleased with me, agrees with me, or will use me again. Paul knew this fear well enough to discipline his own body so that, after preaching to others, he wouldn't find himself adokimos [disqualified] (1 Corinthians 9:27). - Usefulness to God and righteousness before God are not the same thing — Scripture is full of men He used and still held accountable. My first purpose in this life is to be known by God (YHWH [Hashem]) — to know Him, and to please Him, above all else. Everything else — platform, influence, fruit — is downstream of that one thing. Supplemental Deeper Dive