I Failed (A Letter from a Recovering Workaholic)
4 years ago, I was sitting in a Zoom meeting, watching my boss deliver the words that would change my life forever. “We have to let you go.” That was the moment I knew—I was never working for someone else again. So I did what any ambitious woman would do. I went all in. I offered branding packages to local businesses. I worked as a freelance graphic designer, because I thought getting in touch with my artistic side would bring me fulfillment. I painted large murals for restaurants—where I went from feeling exhilarated to feeling like I was going to pass out from exhaustion during every job… wiping the sweat from my brow… and hustling HARD. Then, it was music coaching. 40+ private students serviced. I let them all go because I literally could not keep up with the demand. I was at my wits end. “Do I seriously have to work like a man to get what I want?” So I pivoted, and started selling digital products in 2024. Yielding high-cash months. I built a business from the ground up. I hustled even harder this time, because the payouts were addicting. Then, I was hired on to help manage an Inner Circle of over 200+ people. The heat got cranked up. Now, I was managing an Inner Circle, juggling my mentees, and my business. At every stage, I kept hitting the same wall. More money, less freedom. If I wasn’t working, I wasn’t earning. If I wasn’t “engaging,” my sales were slow as molasses. If I wasn’t answering DMs like a flustered bellhop, I’d miss out on those high-cash days I desired to have. And on top of that—I was attracting the wrong people. 🚩 The ones who needed constant hand-holding. 🚩 The ones who weren’t serious about working with me. 🚩 And I cared more about their business than they did. One day, I realized: I wasn’t just a hard worker. I was a workaholic. Not because I had to be. But because I was making things harder than they needed to be. I didn’t just need a business—I needed a system. I didn’t just need more clients—I needed the right clients. I didn’t just need to make money—I needed to make money that flowed to me, without me chasing it.