As I was listening to money channels in my heart area I started to feel pain. I have 2 money channels- one is very obvious which is the yoga classes I facilitate and the other is not the most obvious in the sense there isn't a link to be booked on but are the craniosacral therapy sessions. I want to be seen but definetly there is a part that feels scared to be seen fully and that is why I don't even have my own website just my social media. It it this conflict inside that keeps on saying I Want more money and I want to be seen and the other that says ...this is fine. People with less skill are making bank, keeping people in mental loops without true healing while I make ok but not even close to the capacity I could be making with my offers. Right now now I feel afraid. My chest is tight. My head is hurting a bit. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I want to be fully confident.

My action I already took was to announce a local retreat. I am so much dreaming of these conscious spaces where we come together and if before ( I did one last year with 3 people) which was only for women...this year I am opening it to men too.

Completed second week and I am very happy with my consistency. What I feel I have won so far: awareness of how deep is the relationship with money and being seen in my body. Feeling this block in my manipura chakra. Things are moving more, I feel definetly my receiving vessel has expanded a little bit, still feel some fear or this restriction that makes me move slow but I have had people reach out to work with me and old ones asking for more sessions. I feel there is this thing in my system: stay small you will be protected and not being confident at a deep level that I can do everything that I desire. It is just a block but it connects a lot with dissapointment and my heart.

Still feel the stuckness, more movement and some activation in my manipura, like a point that is holding me and wants to open. My mind is trying a little bit to escape but I am containing it.

My money persona felt agitated, anxious and a little bit unclear. I experienced the relationship towards the end a little bit more settled. Like I could see how I was literally sitting with it. This being said, I was activated before I started this meditation and it is coming in the relationships with women. For some reason I feel that when I start to shine there are other women that find reasons to push me down and this is what came and the end of the meditation. I am not allowed to shine when other women are intimidated. If I have too many resources women will not support me etc. I am feeling right now a little bit of anger and frustration. I want a world where everyone feels whole and claims what is their. No need to shrink. Everyone become aware of their own conditioning. I acknowledge now how I played small to keep myself protected from other women. I am done doing that. I want to transform.