So, last week, I finished week 2 and as I went through the list, I remember complaining in my head...like bruh, God...at this point, I might as well eat ice cubes and paint with water. Like...is there nothing I can do? Why is everything demonic?! He was patient with me...and let me vent, but kept pushing me to finish. He would highlight parts of Kelly's teachings. He would remind me that not everything is demonic, but where is my help coming from? I went through the renunciations and prayers...then here comes the gnarly part. That conversation with God while going through the Deliverance prayers stuck with me. So much so, that when I was in prayer or asking God what was wrong...the word Idolatry kept coming up. 🤔 At this point, I'm like God, what else is there?! I'm getting frustrated...and during worship at Arise Brandon on Saturday, God told me I was making myself an idol. He said I've been depending on myself for everything. And i've been doing it for such a long time, using mentors, new age practices, how hard I work at my job, etc...all of that was all me, for me. He gave me an image while I was worshipping. He said lay yourself on the altar and surrender yourself. I said...God. like i'm literally in the first row, how much closer do I need to be? He said, in my head, "No. Lay down like in the vision." In the vision, I was laying on the ground in pieces, but as I laid on the ground angels dressed like construction workers put me back together. So, I knelt...still trying to do this my way. Ya'll. I was fighting Jesus about laying on the ground to worship. I said God I need help. I can't do this. I was leaning my weight on my arms...still refusing out of fear of what people would think. Anyway....God got me to the ground, and as soon as my head hit that floor...I WAS SOBBINGGGGGG. And the thought from the Lord was...see...how if you lay on me, how firm I am. How established I am. How grounded I am. You don't have to work hard when you leaning on me. You can truly rest. It felt so good.

So...I need help here. How do I create realistic boundaries? Sometimes my boundaries aren't realistic and therefore, not sustainable...how do I better create boundaries and consequences to broken boundaries that make sense for the situation? Testimonies and general/practical steps are welcome. I've started reading a book called Boundaries, but I need help like...tah-day.

Sooooo...it's that time of month, where I'm ovulating and all the things. What are some other practical ways that you distract yourself during this time if you're not married (and therefore are not able to have sex the way God intended)? I've been praying and God is faithful, I don't have the urges, however, I'm looking for some fresh hobbies or opportunities to keep myself from getting bored and defaulting to old mindsets. Seeking fresh habits!

I want to hear from you. What are some topics that YOU would want to know more about. I would love to create an active list that I can continuously look to as I draw inspiration and prepare each week for the Get REAL & Heal Podcast. Im here to serve YOU and want to bring you what you value. It's not just about what I want to talk about; I need to know what you are asking God for answers on. Let's seek and find Him together. I hope that you would join me LIVE as well, and at the end of the conversation, I am going to open up the floor anonymously for my favorite segment that I like to call "Ask Almost Anything"... where I literally take ALL (appropriate & respectful) questions. This week, I want to talk about forgiveness. What forgiveness from God looks like. You don't have to be ashamed anymore. You are washed clean! Let's talk about it.

Hello! I'm Amanda and I live in MD just outside DC. I joined awhile back during a very busy season, but now I'm ready to jump in! Your name & where you're from ✅ What brought you to REAL Discipleship? Kelly invited me and I desperately need a good community, and I want to keep diving deeper into what God has planned for me. ✅ One area you're believing God for a breakthrough I am believing God for breakthrough in my family and my ministry. I know He has already said it, I'm just walking it out and watching it unfold. ✅ What you're most excited about in this community I am most excited to learn new things and make more friendships. I'm so glad to be here and meet you all!