I just want to talk about what I'm experiencing at this point in the Identity Alchemy Challenge. Day 23/28: We are getting close to the end now and everything is going according to schedule and my body is literally feeling the gradual shifts that haven taken place. The work is compounding and now the body is catching up to the work we've done up until now. I want to start by saying, It feels VERY uncomfortable to have more time and energy. It's like my mania wants to kick in a spend it all like a kid with too much money in a candy shop. I want to GOOO even when I'm meant to be still. My body spent its whole life being overactivated and in overdrive. This is part of living with bipolar. It's been my mission to manage my bipolar by giving myself structure and managing my energy intentionally and my body simply wants to get up go go go go. So much is coming up that hasn't been processed over the years and it has triggered my PTSD symptoms, to be honest. My time in the military suppressed parts of my identity that didn't have the space or acknowledgement to be processed so it got shoved down. Im at a point in my life, many years later, that I'm able to now process it. My nervous system is already always activated from a biological stand point so things compound quickly when living with bipolar. It's like always being turned on and the military trauma added to this and made it MUCH worse. Part of finding myself outside of the military, is managing the need to operate from hyper vigilance and urgency. I'm VERY aware of when I'm activated and even now as I type, I'm speeding up while typing and feeling the tension and speed rise as autopilot starts to take over simply by talking about this. What has been helpful for me is to intentionally SLOW DOWN as often as I can but ESPECIALLY when I notice things start to become rapid like my talking or my thoughts, or when I feel like I can't sit still. This creates the sensation of wanting to jump out of my skin. I'm developing the discipline to overcome this and so the work is working but it has been HARD.

Hi everyone, I want to quickly address something because the integrity of this space matters and my character was attacked in a way that harms the safety of this space. I want you all to know first and foremost, questions are always welcome here. In fact, I encourage it! Discernment is welcome here. Respectful dialogue is welcome here. What is NOT welcome is public character assassination, misrepresentation, or entering this community in bad faith to undermine the teacher, the work, or the members who are here to learn. My experience, background, use of tools, and approach to this work have been shared transparently. If someone has a genuine question, they are welcome to ask it respectfully. If someone comes into this space to discredit, derail, or create distrust, they will be removed. This Academy is a structured learning environment. It is not a debate room, a gossip board, or a place for people to project their assumptions onto the work. Thank you to everyone who is here in good faith, participating, learning, and growing. That is what this space is for. I continuously strive to be better and do better and I appreciate all respectful feedback. The safety and integrity of this space is my HIGHEST priority. Sincerely, Holly

I'm serious. What things do you often wonder about or you've been thinking a lot about and what some answers to? I'd love to start a discussion. Not only will I answer your questions personally, I want to do some videos to go over each question individually. Doesn't matter what it is as long as it's related to spirituality, manifestation, intuition, psychic development, energy work, shadow work. etc. It can even be about the Academy if you're lost or want any clarification on where things are or how this works. It might be helpful to think about what you're currently struggling with or want help with and deriving questions from that. Fire away in the comments below! I'm happy to help and I'm here for you!!

Hello everyone, It has come to my attention that some people are feeling overwhelmed and dropping off due to the pacing of our 90 day terms. I want everyone to know it is NOT necessary to follow the same pace. Many people enter the Academy at different times so it doesn't make sense to have a strict tempo that everyone needs to adhere to. The pacing simply provides focus and keeps me accountable. The structure is intended to guide you regardless of how fast or slow you move through the content. The structure is there for everyone to give you a guided path but please do not feel you have to maintain the same tempo as the academy. That is unreasonable and unrealistic. Everyone's life is different and everyone has different commitments and responsibilities. Please, take the time you need to actually take in, enjoy, and apply the content in a meaningful way that works with your lifestyle. I'm here to meet you where you're at and to guide you, the rest is up to you. You dont even have to follow the structure if you dont want to, your wants and needs come first. Regardless of how you spend your time here, your active participation is all that is required and you earn points for your house merely by showing up and participating. Please don't quit or feel bad for "falling behind." There is no such thing. Sending you all SO much love and grace ⚜️Headmistress Holly ❤️

it is SO SO SO uncomfortable doing this work lol. I want to jump out of my skin, this feeling of expansion is asking me to close my eyes and jump well out of my current comfort zone and I love that I'm doing this work alongside you because it's holding me accountable and forcing me to up my game. I'm just doing what my intuition is telling me to do and holy moly... it's SO uncomfortable as a chronic procrastinator and self-sabotager. I've learned to enjoy the process and that helps immensely. I just want to point out that you are all are SO amazing for doing this work so willingly and your grace in doing so is so awe inspiring to me. I'm so proud of each and every one of you for doing this work. It's not easy. It takes strength and time to learn new things but it is soooo worth it even if it sucks in the beginning 😝