My mother-in-law, 102, whom I have been primary caregiver for since my husband died, almost 10 years, is failing. I am both ready and sad. That is all.
This episode was about coping with new, raw grief since my podcast producer lost her husband and I lost my mom in the last three months. https://youtube.com/live/NCPQIlfCr98
I can. As I am changed, I care deeply about different things and relationships. I am less fearful, more willing to take risks, not wait. When the worst happened, life got urgent for me. I grieve and strive to live more true to myself with each heartbreak.
Here are the photo boards about my Mom's life that Wayne, my stepdad, and me put together. Pulling together this event has consumed me for the last few weeks. Today, I am happy it was so beautiful, relieved it's over and a little lost without that purpose. All the speakers had a different perspective. Everyone could recognize her in every story. The grief is raw again. The question I am asking myself is, "How will I fill the void?" First step, breathe.
I was a featured guest yesterday on the 247 REAL TALK podcast with Julian Perry -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CaV98boUwM We talked about how people process grief all different ways. Julian had me on as a grief expert to talk with his audience about what 'normal' looks like and how to do it 'better'. - When several members of a family and friends pass away in a short time - When they are young and the loss is swift or unexpected - When there's an illness beforehand, so some of the grieving happens in advance We also explored, beyond the heartbreak, the clarity many people find, which changes priorities and transforms purpose. For me, it's been a question of how to parallel path grieving and living. If you are interested and watch it, I would be grateful to hear if anything in particular lands for you.