Hi everyone! I'm super close to completing my thesis titled, "Exploring individual experiences of spiritual awakening, and their views on psychological therapy", and wanted to share the closing section of my reflective essay with you all. I hope you like it 💜 "As I write this final section, I find myself reflecting not only on the research journey, but on the wider journey that unfolded alongside it. A week prior to the submission of this reflective essay, I experienced two significant life events that brought many of the themes explored throughout this thesis into sharp focus; my sister got married, then two days later, my grandmother passed away. Within the space of a few days, my family experienced both a beginning and an ending. One moment was filled with celebration, hope, and the joining of two lives; the other was grief, loss, and saying goodbye to someone who had been a constant presence throughout mine. Side by side, we witnessed the continuation of one generation and the departure of another. It felt as though life had condensed one of its greatest lessons into a single week. As I reflected on these events, I found myself returning to a theme that has appeared repeatedly throughout both this research and my own life: transformation. My spiritual awakening initially felt like the beginning. There were moments of awe, wonder, liberation, and excitement. It felt as though I had discovered an entirely new way of seeing myself and the world around me. What I did not anticipate was that every beginning would require an ending. Before a new understanding of myself could emerge, an older version was departing. Alongside connection came periods of loneliness. What I initially understood as an awakening eventually revealed itself to be a process of continual becoming. The same has been true of doctoral training. When I began the doctorate, I imagined qualification as a destination. I believed there would be a moment where I would finally feel certain, knowledgeable, and fully formed as a clinical psychologist. Yet, the further I progressed, the more I realised that growth rarely arrives in this way. Instead, it unfolds through periods of confidence and self-doubt, clarity and confusion, certainty and ambiguity. Just as participants described spiritual awakening as a process rather than a single event, I have come to view professional development in much the same way.

I wanted to share with you a poem I wrote about a tough, relational ending 💜 Drowning inside your misery, the price of my innocence paid. I gave you a love without boundaries, but love was a mask you portrayed. We forged what I swore was forever, a bond that no fire could break. But glass can disguise itself golden, and dreams can be easy to fake. How do I tear down the visions, the stories you painted as true? A castle of paper and silence, that crumbled the moment I knew. For love is not always in holding, sometimes it’s in the letting go, To lose you became my redemption, in breaking, I found my salvation.

Hi everyone!! It's been a while since I've spoken to you all. It's been quite the journey over the past year which I look forward to sharing with you all! Here's a short poem to capture it all. I wrote this in a couple of minutes so it needs a little fine-tuning! I hope you like it! "Look into my eyes, just one last time, Pierce into my soul, it's not a heinous crime. What do you see? A mirrored reflection of you? Or sparkling glass marbles, only seen in a few. Like planets orbiting in space, In a timeless, expansive page, Stellar flares, supernovas - stars exploding in rage. What do you see? A carefree, divine feminine, illuminating calm through chaos, Her eyes gaze across, With silent stories of heartbreak, grief, and loss. Who do you see? Connect the dots like a detective. Am I just another body surviving like the collective? Or a tired soul having a human experience, Just like the rest of us? Now, do you see?"

Hi lovelies!! I hope you've all been well! The last couple of years of my spiritual journey has been tricky but enlightening! Our beautiful souls are here for a purpose and I'm excited to say that I've found my calling! I've naturally been a quiet, reserved person who observes from the sidelines whilst shedding light through my energy, but one thing I love is communicating through written language! I'm currently undertaking a doctorate to become a Psychologist, and I've realised that my purpose is to not only help people with their sufferings, but to bring knowledge and understanding of spirituality into the profession, something which is often overlooked! I'm inspired by the works of Carl Yung and Dr Steven Taylor, and my thesis will be focused on hearing people's spiritual awakening journeys and their views on psychotherapy. I still have a way to go, but I was wondering what your thoughts were on this? Would it be something you're interested in being a part of, or would there be any hesistancy and why? 💜✨️

Please help!! I was told by a friend today that I have a super strong aura that can be sensed as soon as I walk into a room. There was one particular day where I reached the vibration of enlightenment, and it felt like heaven on earth. I was told by three people that day that I had a white aura glowing around me, that I was happy, sparkling, and all I felt was compassion and love. I've never felt this feeling again... I've been on a spiritual journey and meditate often to raise my vibration but I never knew my friend (and who knows how many others) could notice my energy so deeply? I guess I feel exposed, and as somebody who's led a quiet/invisible life, I'm not so keen on her noticing this? If my energy is that powerful, I don't want to be projecting any negativity into the environment. But being high vibe isn't sustainable and not a 'human experience' either. I'm also on a journey to showing my authentic self, and I guess this is one reason why I haven't exposed myself all my life? For the fear of being seen? It's like the saying, "with great power comes great responsibility". Deep down I don't want this power, but maybe having a strong energy field is a part of me that I need to accept? Potentially I could transform this energy for good - but how? Does anyone have any advice or guidance please? ✨️