Through a Mothers lens of Protection
My mother came from a generation that watched nightly news stories about girls disappearing into “white slavery,” cults, drugs, and Hollywood exploitation. To her, modeling wasn’t glamorous first — it was dangerous first. And Japan? Japan may as well have been the moon. There was no internet. No texting. No way to track me in real time. Just contracts faxed across oceans, expensive international phone calls, and my mother sitting at the kitchen table trying to understand what kind of world was asking for her daughter. I remember her on the phone constantly, questioning agencies, discussing contracts, verifying names, trying to hear danger through static-filled international calls. Looking back now, I realize she wasn’t being controlling. She was terrified. By then, I wasn’t just modeling anymore. I had become a teenage runaway. In the 1980s, runaway culture was everywhere. Movies. Music. News stories. Missing girls on milk cartons. Punk clubs. Hollywood apartments. Kids escaping homes, rules, pain, boredom, abuse, or sometimes just themselves. My friends would later make Where the Day Takes You, but long before Hollywood turned runaway life into cinema, I was already living pieces of it. A judge once told me there would be a warrant out for my arrest until I turned eighteen because I kept running away. But the strange thing was…nobody stopped me from getting on an airplane to Japan. Somehow, crossing an ocean with a modeling contract looked more acceptable than staying out all night in Los Angeles. So I ran away professionally. And once I got to Japan, I didn’t want to come home. My agent sounded confused on the phone when Christmas came around. “Why don’t you want to go back?” I didn’t know how to explain that Japan felt safer than my own life. #Through a Mothers Len of Protection @Karin Crawford @Adelina Rosa @Krista Brea