@Christian F. I think you can feel in the moment, whether what you are trying to do is creating expansion or contraction. A great indicator of whether or not it’s the right thing.

Tbh, the comments here have great advice. The one thing I would add is, might you ask yourself next time, “am I okay just being human right now?” Before when I would feel uncomfortable, I would try really hard to change that feeling. But the more I allow myself to be human, and remind myself that fear and worry is part of it. Anxiety is part of it. Pain is part of the human experience, just as is peace and happiness. I find that acceptance arises and I am able to easily surrender to what is. Without that resistance to what is, there is no suffering.

The secret is not to escape the circumstances, it’s to be free from the negative mind stories about it. Imagine instead, that your parents are your highly advanced spiritual teachers, and you are in the advanced Earth school, learning through these tough experiences. Only you can know this. But in this life they will likely never discover this truth. It’s your little secret. When you face them on a daily basis, face them not as a trapped daughter, stuck under their tyrannical rule, but as a student of God. They have no true power over you other than the power you give them through your beliefs. There is you, and there is God. Your parents are merely instruments for your teachings. Every time you forget, and get trapped in fear, remember this. There are many lessons to be learned, and you must find them. But here are some examples. 1. You are not oppressed. You are being taught to remember your true power through the pain of feeling like a slave. Use this pain as a catalyst for your freedom. 2. There is nothing wrong. You are being taught emotional control and freedom from negative thoughts by circumstances that trigger difficult feelings and thoughts. 3. Through this pain, you are being guided toward learning how to use your creative power toward manifesting a life you actually desire. Without painful circumstances, you would never have the motivation to seek your true power. Change the story in your head, and your reality changes. Reality will either bend to you, or you will bend to reality. Remember your power, and take it back. Never allow yourself for a moment to be a slave to a life you don’t desire. You are the creator , through your thoughts. Think your new reality into existence, and every time your outer life triggers you, remember… you have all the power, by changing the way you think and react. Get clear on the life you want, and focus only on that. Imagine not that you hope it will happen one day. Imagine it is true NOW. The more certain you feel about what you desire, the more certain it will show up in your life. Just persist, and don’t allow anything to lead you astray.

@Sugam Nepal haha OH NO, THEYVE INFILTRATED THE RANKS

You can't fool or trick the Universe. The Universe is like your lover, if you try to manipulate her into loving you, she's not going to give you what you want. You have to play this game of life and dance with her. You develop a personal relationship with her instead of just trying to get what you want. When she can trust you, then you will get all you desire. So instead of focus on getting what you want, focus on what life is trying to communicate to you. Focus on your evolution and the journey, how she's guiding you toward your highest spiritual growth through these circumstances. You can stop taking things so seriously, and have more fun. Enjoy the journey and dance in the present moment. You already have the seed of desire to change and evolve, which is Life saying "hey, lets do this, or try doing this." There is always the voice, like an inner compass, guiding you on where to go, and what to do next. I would pray before bed, and say something like "Okay God, you know what i want. Show me what to do." Once you're open to influence, God will guide you effortlessly. But you also want to let go of your Ego expectations. If life doesn't match your expectations, go complain to God. But don't close off your ears and turn from God just because things aren't going as planned. Everything that you go through is exactly what is needed for you to become the version of you that is able to receive all that you desire.