I have been so proud of myself over the last 30 days, I have been in deep conversation with myself, reminding myself who I am. i stopped smoking cannabis for this whiole month and was so happy and in my JOY! but then I looked back. I retreated to my little bubble of comfort. I smoked weed again and I see how much it inspires me yet keeps me in a trance state that is challenging to break free from. It’s not the cannabis tho, it’s me. I been playing small for way too long and I AM done. My iintention is to step all the way on and leave no parts of me left behind I AM BIG and I AM allowed to take up space!!! ALL of ME!! Here now! First, I am aware of my situation and what has been taking place, what is out of balance . Secondly, I am setting my intention to be fully realized and embodied as the true and living ME! My next steps are to create a strategy around this, which is what I’ll be working on when I arrive back to the mainland on Thursday. I WILL take actions to balance this out Help me celebrate with a GIF that you think is a reflection of me please

This morning in my discussions with @Jared Johnson and @Chance Lundgren we talked about safety and on the topic of injury, for me it isn't just about personal injury, but also property damage. When the kids or my wife are doing things with a disregard for say, the furniture it affects me more than it should. I'm constantly trying to avoid injury and deficit. Injury to my belongings that I worked hard to purchase and deficit from the time and money to repair or replace damaged items. Jared was talking a story about his wife and kids and I was immediately picturing the possible damages that could occur and that anticipation of damages started causing me some anxiety...lol. anyway, it was interesting thinking about the different harm and safety and applying them to different events.

Yesterday morning with @Jared Johnson and @Jared Fenn we went over the Safety topic and had some really good discussions on the topic. I see safety at this point in my life so much different than I have before. In going through the questions in the lesson and answering them, I saw many ways where I did not feel safe as a child and an adult. I saw many ways I have shown up in the life's of people that matter to me that I did not provide safety. It is so easy to look at safety as a physical need only when I hear that word, but it is more relatable in my life daily in the form of emotions safety. I know I have invalidated my wife in many ways with her safety due to my lack of emotional understanding. In reading through the material, it helped me better understand all the ways this shows up and changes my perspective on the meaning and my intention to see that differently now and show up with better understanding. One thing that hits me hard is Deficit, one major reason in my intention in joining this tribe is finding a sense of belonging. Much of my life I have saw a strength in a lone wolf mentality as a man, but I am quickly learning that this is a limited mindset and there is so much wholeness found in connection and strength in groups and the support that can come from that.

My little introduction video. I'm looking forward to expanding with you all🙏 https://www.loom.com/share/4e78cda73c694e37914a429370d6be7c