I have been painting for 35-ish years. In April, when it was clear that my professional activity as a floral and heritage surface pattern designer was economically unsustainable for me and my family because the studio I had been working for for two years didn't provide clients for my style, all of a sudden I stopped painting. I closed my activity in June. Since then, I haven't been feeling like painting or drawing. I have got many nice projects in mind, but the simple idea of picking up a pencil, a brush or a fine-liner makes me sick. In September I learned a bit of fashion illustration, just for the sake of it, but then I stopped. I know I'm good, but now I feel empty and mentally and emotionally tired. Having fibromyalgia and severe disc hernias doesn't help... I'd love to travel and to have "the artist's date" in a big European capital city, like Paris or London to "fill in the well", as Julia Cameron suggests, but I've got no money - and my health wouldn't allow it. Artmaking has been my joy and my comfort through my bad health for so long; please help me regain it. Thanks.