I’m fake. Actually, you just helped me see the logical flaw in my thinking. I don’t have any social accounts linked because I want people to connect with me here on Skool. That’s the rationale. But if they’re looking at my profile, then they’re already here so it doesn’t matter. Okay, I’ll connect my other socials. It’s not a bad idea, in case Skool gets bought out by a large corporation a year from now.

Good job on the self reflection and owning the actions you wish you hadn't done. My problem might be the opposite of yours. I need to fix my vibes to be more aggressive/masculine. I prioritize rest and healing. I can flow and adapt to almost anything. But I don't have that fire, the sense of urgency, the drive to go to battle. Almost everything good in my life is 80% luck/manifestation. I'm not yet the kind of person who pushes hard to make things happen.

@Benjamin Ross You know you can heal yourself.

Rum. You might not get another chance.

Looks like you need some quality time with Monkey. I didn't watch the whole video, but since you were talking about masculine/feminine at the beginning, have you heard of _The Left Hand of Darkness_ by Ursula K. LeGuin?

I used to think the meaning of life was to do hard things that scared the crap out of me and that other people told me not to do. Now it's about experiencing as much as possible. I had a lucid dream where I spoke to an angel and I asked it what I'm supposed to do. It showed me this big eye and handed it to me like it was a baby. Then I woke up. I agree with @Jason Dobbie that we're here to evolve our consciousness. I think we do this by living through more, doing more, experiencing more. Most people are drawn to travel, achievement, hedonism, etc. or to a virtual immitation of these things. It's the soul calling for more.