Out before the sun fully came up to head back to our camp with my hubby and there was a lot of life happening in the resting stage. I have been so hard on myself for pulling out of so many groups and lead roles because I didn't have the energy. To the point of causing my self to spiral into depression and feel like i no longer have purpose. And that was before I knew I had CHF at 45 but it is still like this now in the knowledge of this diagnosis for one year but unfortunately now carries grief as the icing on the cake. Today snapping a few photos 📸 allowed me to see that not only is it okay to rest but that it is a natural and necessary part of life and growth. To really feel that today was a blessing and beautiful and hard all at the same time.