Being a father is blessing and a lot of responsibility. I can never get over that. My father left when i was 11. He wasn't around and I was tried of begging him to be apart of my life afterwards. Now that I have my own children, I try to be present with them as much as I can be. Sleepless nights and endless responsibilities but its a blessing to have a wife and children that love and count on me. Dont give up. Keep pushing forward.