(Credit to Coach Alex)
2 months ago, I could barely run 2 miles.
But I showed up every day, ran slowly, pushed myself through pain, and grew.
It wasn't about the mileage, but rather self-mastery. To build that stack of evidence that you are who you say you are, disciplined, unrelenting, and growth-minded, able to achieve all the goals you set your sights on.
By mile 14, my legs were burning up. I ran with a slight limp, exhausted after running out of water.
I was completely dehydrated by mile 16, feet hurting with every step. My heart rate skyrocketed as my body desperately tried to provide sufficient oxygen after the loss of blood volume due to dehydration.
But I persisted, chunked each mile into small half-mile chunks, and carried on. Constantly reminding myself that without pain, there cannot be growth.
And magically, I kept my head up, shoulders relaxed. I stopped thinking of the discomfort as pain, and instead embraced it.
My pace picked up again, and after 5 gruelling hours, crossed the 20 mile mark. I was trotting along the path at 30min/mile at times.
That day, I casted 10,000 votes to my 2.0 self.
Ignore the outcomes, focus on the inputs. That's what you have control over.
These 20 miles I ran at a horrible pace, especially towards the end, but my physicality is something I can always improve. But running this distance proved to me that I can be extraordinary if I choose to.
I'm only getting started, and this marathon is only 11 days away. I'm nervous, but also excited. Even if I don't finish in time, I will still run the entire distance. I'll make a long post about my experiences then.
We all have demons that we're fighting every day, and i'm busy fighting mine's as well. But even now I know for sure, we're all capable of so, so much more.