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Richard Lai

24d • Day 2. The Mask

Day 2

What truth did God reveal to you today? God reminded me to time of my decision to go to grad school for my PhD long time ago. It was not because I heard a clear calling from God. It was still possible it was from Him but I heard the voice of my dad who suggested it. I went through difficult times at school trying to do the most difficult experiments and try to write publications so that i have accomplished something great in academia. I experienced rage and even punched a hole in the wall in my lab on Christmas day doing experiments. I had to temporarily quit school and get Christian counseling. Letting go and giving to God was the key for my healing. I learned that trying to impress my dad was a false mask i was wearing. Even though I am no longer a student I see some of the issues as I navigate being a dad, an employee. I want to go into business on my own but I have mindset issues and inexperience.
What mask or lie did God expose? I do not need to withdraw or be closed off when I make even the tiniest mistake in the home. I do not need to be the perfect person in my home. I give myself permission to say it is ok if I forget to leave the lights on or forget to give my sons vitamins or forget to pay the bills. Also, I have been at time spending late nights getting work done for my job which is causing exhaustion a couple times a month. I have the fear of losing my job so I want to impress my boss/coworkers.
What is one thing you will intentionally live differently today? Just to be thankful in everything. I want to wake up and not start the day thinking of the problems of today and this life. I want to first remember and acknowledge God is with me the whole day. I have the Holy Spirit who guides me in all truth. I just near to hear. Practically I am going to stop all nighters for work and just let it go.
How can your brothers encourage, challenge, or pray for you today? Again more prayer on letting go of the past. I need to remember God is my helper in everyday circumstances.

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