I get that this practice might feel very different from how we approach scripture in Bible study. But there's a reason for that.
Bible study that includes word searches, original texts, context historically, and author's intent are SO helpful in the LEFT brain approach to knowing about God.
BUT, God made us with the RIGHT side of the brain too - the irrational, creative, imaginative, and non-linear side that is able to know God. (know as in experience, feel, sense, and hear)
What was your experience like interacting with scripture, with God's voice, through your imaginative story-sided brain?
Where did you find yourself in the story?
IF YOUR STRUGGLING IDENTIFYING WHAT YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
I get it's tough. And actually, fear is one of the hardest emotions to identify honestly. So think about moments of anxiety, worry, a hypercontroling state, you've found yourself in.
All of these emotions point toward a deeper lying fear. They're a boat that's on top of the ocean of fear rolling under it.
To find the hidden fear, ask, "Why" over and over again.
Why did I feel anxious when so-and-so didn't show up?
Why was I worried this morning leaving my house?
Why did I turn into Super Control Mode?
And then when you've answered, ask why again. You might be surprised how many layers are uncovered.
This kind of conversation back and forth when sought after in prayer IS partnership with the Spirit's guidance. And if answering these questions feels impossible, ask him to reveal the answer to you through a passage of scripture coming to mind.
I can't wait to hear about your time with God, and your own thoughts and feelings. I'm praying for your encounter with him.