Day 1 : The S Prayer Reflection
The object I was holding was Taz the Tasmanian devil from looney toons. it was the anxiety I was feeling.
I could sit still I tried to jump to 5 different apps and distractions as I came to this, I was looking around, adjusting my pillows, doing nothing but sit… still…
As I was feeling the madness circle around me the movement was interesting, I move him out in front of me and there appeared a glass box. I could feel him circling around the glass box but he couldn’t get to me.
As I sat there and stared i realized the movement is justification. I feel inept, not enough, behind, unworthy. I realized that I have been believing that my value come in movement. So to stop moving is to cease to be valuable.
To stop moving is also to stop long enough to find out… I’m afraid that if I sit and listen… much like Martha… that it won’t be ok, there will be a why aren’t you working…
There is a stillness that I remember from times lost in the chaos peaking out at me. A familiar friend yet also a lost connection. I’m thankful to be sitting.. to be releasing, to be slowing down.
I’m willing as far as my heart can carry and I’m open as far as the Lord wants to take it.
I was surprised by this experience.. not because I am anxious but that it has gotten so far into me that I didn’t realize just how anxious I’ve become.
To a week of discovery and new life.
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Day 1 : The S Prayer Reflection
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