I almost went back to pushing people away
Whenever it gets too much.
I almost took the knife,
But I didn’t, though it would’ve been easier.
I almost not gift her the card
That was the start of this beautiful relationship.
I almost said those few words,
Cutting off this friendship before it destroys me.
I almost went home from having a panic attack,
But then she would’ve known.
I almost stayed in bed that day
Because my limbs were too heavy to move.
I almost didn’t sign up for the exchange
Just because I wasn’t sure if it’d be good.
There are so many things I almost did
Or didn’t do.
But now I know that sometimes,
My own fear is my biggest enemy.