I just realized that I’ve been coping for the last few months. You see over the spring and summer, I was putting a lot of focus into social skills and I’ve leveled it up until it hasn’t really become a problem.
But I think I still have work to do. I’ve taken my foot off the gas pedal from improving my social skills. I still talk to people so it’s not like I’ve abandoned it, but I think I could reach another level. Another level of self expression.
I’ve been stuck at the same limiting belief for such a long time because I keep making excuses to not talk to people even when my brain has already generated a question for me to ask them.
And I keep saying that I’m an introvert and that I’m trying to conserve energy or I’m trying to “maintain” my social skills instead of improving them.
There is more work to do and I am going to try to be more authentic. Like today in class I had a question about something, but I shut it down quickly because I was scared of the teacher thinking my question was unrelated to the topic and stupid and kids laughing at me.
But it’s not about the outcome, remember Alex. It’s about the person we become in the process. So are you inhibiting yourself or expressing yourself? Because both will compound over time. Do you want to feel free or live with suppressed emotions?