A while ago I was on a business call with friends celebrating our wins and discussing business ideas. One shared they were putting together a project to help people who had suicidal tendencies and asked if anyone wanted to help out by putting together an “I story” and share it for the project.
I quickly said “ME”! I then thought to myself why the heck did I just say that? I have nothing to share. Immediately, thoughts came rushing in of years past, memories of things that I had long forgotten, from a person I no longer recognized. I was not that person any more. It was as if they were someone else’s thoughts and memories and not my own, that’s how far removed I was from this. I made a video and shared it for the project.
Today, I woke up very early. Usually when I’m up this early I ask God if there’s anything specific that needs to be done because I love the wee hours of the morning when there’s no noise and no one is up. It gives me time to reflect, be in the Word and journal, or whatever else gets put on my heart to do.
The first thing that came to me was a Scripture 2 Timothy 1:7… For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. I eventually got out of bed and was led to share this. Before I started typing I opened up a daily devotional I listen to and this Scripture was on it and it was confirmation to put my trepidation aside and share my video.
I had told Pete when I joined his community that I would do a video introduction and my projects kept me from doing it. Today, instead of that introduction video that I was going to record, I feel led to share this.
Years ago, I was a very fearful person full of anxiety, anger, and emotional issues that kept me in a 2 steps forward 3 steps back mode for most of my life until I started really following God. There were moments of intense pain in my body and my brain because of all I had been through. Thoughts of taking my own life sprinkled throughout my days.
One day that I remember in particular changed my life. I pray you’ll listen with hope that a day can come where you have control of your thoughts and life and that you’ll be able to operate in a spirit of peace and joy. That you’ll look back without the memory of the times of deep desperation and look at an abundant life that’s at your fingertips, within your grasp, or that you’re currently living.
My video is below. I’m here in the community if you’d like to reach out and I thank Pete for starting his own to help others become free with the resources he provides.
BLESSINGS! Ann Marie