So my Reflection sabbatical took a little longer than I wanted.
Basically, my Reflecting turned into Rethinking then Reimagining then Rewriting then Refining....you see where this is going. I will spear you all the details.
To be honest, it felt like I was going through the stages of grief over my membership. It kind of went something like this.
- Denial - "I donโt need to make these changes. My membership can work the way it is. Everyone will figure it out and sign up. I don't need to change anything right now."
- Anger - "Why is this so difficult? Iโve put so much effort into these changes, and I donโt even know if it's going to work. Maybe I'm not cut out for this, and I'm frustrated with myself for trying to make it perfect every time."
- Bargaining - "If I just change a few things, maybe this will work out. What if I made the membership only for a certain group, or just offered the basics at first, then expanded later? Maybe this will make people sign up."
- Depression - "I donโt know if I can get this right. I'm overwhelmed with all these shifting decisions, and I feel like no matter what I do, it wonโt be good enough. Iโm unsure if I can handle the pressure of launching something that truly works."
- Acceptance - "Okay, I understand that shifting my membership is part of the process, and I can learn from each change. Iโm going to embrace the evolution of it, trust in my vision, and continue to refine as I go. I donโt have to have everything figured out today."
And of course, this process wasn't linear. I was going back and forth between all the stages.
Anyone else feel like this sometimes? ๐คช
So I asked myself why I was sabotaging my efforts to create something so important.
โWhy did making money on new year's day feel good and not good at the same time?
What happened next was a HUGE personal breakthrough.
๐ฅ I had a HUGE secret money block and didn't even realize it!
ENORMOUS! MASSIVE! COLOSSAL! MAMMOTH! GIGANTIC!
Did I mention it was BIG?
A little short back story: I loved my mother but I did not like her. She never accepted me for who I was, made me feel bad for not being the daughter she always wanted, dismissed my accomplishments, treated me horribly yet worshiped my brothers, obligated me to give her money every month because she was my mother (ugh)...etc. Eventually everything became about money as I grew older.
Here's the kicker: What I didn't realize was that subconsciously I had come to associate money with her and it made me cringe and run. What??? ๐คฎ
My current behavior: Reaching for money, making a little, and then dropping the ball (or not feeling interested in making any more). What??? ๐คฏ
If you were in my house at that very moment of discovery, you would have heard me cursing up a storm. I called her every name I could think of and it felt good!
I went to my whiteboard and wrote out the whole story and then reframed my current thoughts about money into a healthier phrase. (For me, reading words/phrases helps me remember what I need to do)
So I now I see "Money is Good" every time I walk through my hallway.
And you know what, it's working. I already feel different. Stronger. Determined. ๐
Yesterday, I created a schedule for the month of February for 2 groups. I added when I would post on Skool, when I would post on Youtube, and when I would do Live calls. ๐
YES!!! ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ
Going through this entire process made me realize what I wanted to do with my free membership.
I want to add a personal healing and growth component to help others (and myself) remove limiting beliefs, overcome self-sabotage, remove imposter syndrome, etc..
โ What do you think?
โAre there other topics I'm missing to helping you get unstuck?
Please do the poll and let me know your thoughts because I can care about helping you not only make your business a reality, but also have fun making a living you are proud of. ๐
It's good to be back! ๐