I could have been gone!

Tierra Daniels

Apr 22 • General discussion

I Could’ve Been Gone

by Goddess T. Marie

I could’ve been gone.

And not just buried.

I mean gone gone.

I could’ve been with lovers,

getting flewed out,

on shopping sprees,

eating strawberries on balconies in far away places

letting some man pay my rent for a smile.

Oh, don’t play—

I’ve seen the sugar daddy content.

I could do it.

But I didn’t.

I could’ve been gone

mentally.

Could’ve taken the powder they offered.

Numbed out.

Doped out.

Stoned out of my damn mind

and no one would have blamed me.

But I chose to stay.

I chose to be present.

I chose to be a conscious parent

even when the dreamer in me

was begging to run.

I’m standing here.

And I’ll keep standing.

I’m digging my roots deep—

deep into this earth,

into this body,

into this sacred role as

the mother tree.

The one who only lives

to give Back to the fruit

that came from her.

Cyclically.

Over. And over. And over.

But catch this fire:

I’m taking care of me.

Because I’m the damn tree.

And what happens

when the tree dies?

Exactly.

So if you ever try to call a mother selfish

for saving her own life—

Don’t.

I’m not dramatic.

I’m just done dying quietly.

And this?

This is my gospel from the flames

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