As I was journaling my results from this week for approaching, something interesting happened for me. I write it all out, and I then just let it be. I felt the feeling. I wrote the following:
Doing this way of tracking (writing out exactly what I did). It left me feeling empty, it felt pointless,more pressure,like I still wasnt enough.
Even though it felt like lots of content, it seemed at the end, as if im attempting to fill a void. This is not personal, as much as the mind and emotions are trying to convince me it is.
This is feedback,information, that is it. I think engaging with the discomfort, the "im going to express this no matter what,I need to start challenging myself at a new level".
Engaging with the discomfort when I spoke to those women, allowed me to have those intense moments with my nervous system. Which led to higher awareness.