I was hefty after having my daughter. Gained 55lbs while pregnant. In 2010 I was still 200lbs. By 2017 I had gotten to 160lbs with muscle. And now in 2025 I have ballooned back up to 200lbs and am so disappointed in myself. I look every day for motivation and willpower and 80% of the time I find it...but 20% of the time I hit a black hole of despair and sabotage myself. I don't know if the weight gain is just what happens when you get older or if its hormones or lack of metabolism and if I can even "fix it".