Mom's lived and got her out of the house. She is embarrassed but she is getting some air. Thanks for letting me vent. I thought I sent the video on Facebook before coming to my home town for her. But I didn't. And Philip was right I sucked but if you make it to the end I give philip a lot of credit for my mindset now. I see my desperation, my hunger, and that i was heading for a heart attack. Taking life too serious. Anyways God bless you all. Im getting g back to my mother.